Just Yesterday

It’s been 25 days since you left
But I still feel like I saw you just yesterday.

I love you Mom.
And while the pain might subside a little.
It is and will always be there.

These past 25 days:
I raged.
I cried.
I dreamed.
I’ve accepted it.
But when I go to sleep and when I wake up, it’s still the same.

It’s an empty feeling.
A numb one.
I can’t explain it any better than that.

I’ve had flashbacks too numerous to count.
And I can’t make them stop.

I try.
But they don’t.

And still something is pulling me through these days.
Something that I can’t even see.

I think it’s you looking down on me from heaven, Mom.
Even though I still feel like I just saw you yesterday.