Hurting Down Deep

Mom

I’ve stopped crying uncontrollably since you left, but I still feel a tremendous pain now that you are gone.

I fall to sleep – not well – thinking of you
And I wake up…still thinking.
You are all that is in my mind
And I still can’t believe that you are gone.

Since you left I’ve reconnected with my old acquaintances and pals
Who relived their stories for me on how you touched their lives
From the people who called you Aunt
To the people you worked with.
And it makes me both happy and sad…
To think of the lives you touched
To think of the times we had.
And to think of what will never be.

You were the driving force in my life.
And now that you are gone I feel like there’s no one behind the wheel.
I'm simply numb.

We will all try to live on
But I know it won’t ever be the same again ...without you.

And the pain will always be there down deep
As I think fondly of you Mom.